August 22 2014, 11pm
Spirits of Saturn — closed starter for bitchywhitemobboss
Mink looked down at Aoba as he huddled closer, and he thought he could see a faint pout around those pale lips and he smiled again. Had he always been this cute?
He thought of how he’d watched Aoba sleep months ago, his abuser and his guardian all at once. He’d told himself then that this was just something he had to do. He had to protect the tool that was most valuable to his mission, had to keep him safe. He’d known even then that he was probably fooling himself. A tool didn’t need a bedside vigil, didn’t need to be carried up to bed after his rape. He’d tried to balance drawing out the power of Desire, hurting him in targetted and controlled ways, with showing Aoba that he didn’t want to hurt him more than was absolutely necessary. The results had been mixed: he’d gotten his revenge and the solitude he wanted afterwards, and all it had left him with was a hollowness inside him, a living death and loneliness that made him feel conflicted as Ren’s emails escalated in tone.
"You’ll have to move eventually," Mink said quietly, finally letting his arm fall and settle around Aoba’s shoulders, rubbing them gently. To be honest, he didn’t really want to move much either, just as conscious of the spell being broken as Aoba was. This dreamlike state was exactly where he wanted to be, exactly who he wanted to be with.
Mink was right, he would have to move eventually. But he wasn’t going to admit that. Not if he didn’t have to. After all, laying here like this felt like a dream. Soft and gentle and warm, everything a dream should be. Only it was real. That was what he couldn’t wrap his head around really. He almost couldn’t believe at all that this was real, that Mink would hold him like this. But it was happening and he didn’t want to move.
Even the most comfortable of positions become uncomfortable after a while though and despite not wanting to move at all Aobas body began to protest against just laying there. Shifting to get more comfortable didn’t work and just ended up frustrating him even more. Getting up wasn’t on his list of things to do today, not even close. But apparently he was going to have to.
When he opened his eyes again though and saw Minks face his mind was filled with flashes of what had happened last night and even though he’d been present for part of it he was still embarrassed by it. But it meant that things didn’t have to be awkward or painful between them. That maybe he could move on and actually be happy, as long as Mink was willing to be with him like this at least. It was a little sad that his happiness hinged on Mink wanting to stay with someone as broken as him, but it was all he had to cling to right now. This was really the only positive feeling he had to hold on to. Which may have been the reason he leaned up and kissed Minks cheek. Gentle little gestures like that were rare these days but Mink seemed to pull these sorts of things out of him. He was good at that it seemed, even without trying. Pulling things out of Aoba that he tried to keep hidden.
August 22 2014, 10pm
BOYFRIEND / GIRLFRIEND/ DATEMATE APPLICATION
Why should I pick you?:
Why do you even want to date me?:
I swear to God I’m just going to keep reblogging until I finally get a response
August 22 2014, 9pm
Leave ↓ for a strange fact about the Mun
Two facts? Alright.
1. I cannot go to sleep without some kind of light on, even if it’s just turning on my ds and letting it stay on all night or a tv or something. Nightlights don’t work, they;re not bright enough. I’m just too scare to sleep without a kind of light.
2. Sometimes I get the urge to wash my hands out of nowhere and if I don’t do it right then I start feeling weird and upset and I really don’t understand it, only know that I absolutely have to wash my hands or I’ll get mad at things for no reason.